I consider myself a spiritual person. I'm not a believer of any religion I know, but I have my own beliefs when it comes to faith, divine powers and all that. That's not something I'm going to describe in depth today though.
I was raised by christian parents and they wanted me to be christian. Because of that, my mother told me I should pray every night. Since I was little I was quite the sad child and my self esteem wasn't as good as it could have been. For example, I was a bit overweight and wanted to be thinner. That resulted in me praying to God every night telling him 'please make me thinner'.
I don't remember when or why, my father told me one shouldn't pray to God for every nuisance in our lives. He also told me we shouldn't ask for mundane or material things. The kind of things we could ask from God were the energy to carry on with our lives pursuing our dreams, the capability to always see the light in our darkest hours, etc... That meant I couldn't ask for a thinner body anymore.
I started praying the way my father told me, when my mother came to me with another piece of information. One should pray to God the same way you would talk to a father. But I couldn't imagine myself asking my father to 'always help me see the light in my darkest hours' or anything like that.
I was confused. Communicating with God was hard. As if that wasn't enough, God never seemed to listen, or at least he didn't answer. 'Why did you let terrible things happen to me? I didn't do anything wrong, did I?' I asked, only to recieve silence in return. I started praying less and less. Eventually I stopped praying altogether. By the time I was 7 years old, I wasn't christian anymore.
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These were the deviations posted on my thread in the thumbnails forums. The theme was religious stuff, angels, spirits, things like that... Please give them some love